My heart is SO heavy today. I'm carrying every little thing around with me. Every word, every look, it's all weighing on me right now. I am doing everything possible to try and be a better person, mother, wife, Christian, a better everything. Every time I feel like I'm looking upward, something has ahold of my shoe strings pulling me back down.
Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint."
I want to be able to be strong enough to wait on the Lord and his will and soar like eagles and never stumble.
I'm hear just waiting on his direction. I'm making a resolution to give it ALL to him today and from now on. I will no longer be bothered with things that don't affect me and my relationship with Him.
I pray that he helps me to surround myself with people who are healthy for my faith and my relationship with God. And that he uses me to give courage to those that need strength and prayer. Help me to be the friend, wife, mother, Christian that I need to be.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Warmth
I don't really have anything to post today, but I did find this new cool summer background. It made me want to be on the beach with my toes in the sand spending time with my friends and family. I know everyone knows this, but I can not WAIT to have summer cook outs and let the kids just get dirty and rinse them off in the sprinkler or the pool. I love to watch my little guy play outside with his dad and make bows and arrows out of a stick and a rope. That's how simple life should be.
Hope everyone has a great day!
Hope everyone has a great day!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Love is in the air.
WOW!!!! Spring has sprung...hopefully. It was a flip flop wearing kind of weekend. Still needed long sleeves, but the toes were definitely OUT!!!!! Hallelujah. Not sure I could handle one more stuffy weekend inside. Bought paint this weekend for the hallway and kitchen. I know, you can't believe it right! For those of you that so dearly love my sheet rock walls, they will soon have paint. :)
We have been so fortunate all winter to be living healthy lives with no sickness. Of course, spring will change all that when the dreaded allergies strike my house. But allergies, I can deal with.
11 years ago today, my husband asked me to be his wife. Never once have I ever doubted my love for him. He's a pretty amazing person. He gives with his whole self. He's so tough on the outside, but definitely soft and lovey on the inside. He's a great dad and a great husband. I couldn't ask for more. I am truly blessed and lucky that God gave me him.
Thank you Lord today, for everything that you give to us but especially the love you give from yourself and others. We are definitely not worthy of your affection, yet you give it always, unconditionally.
Your love stands in the shadow of no other and can overcome anything. Thank you for humbling my heart and thank you for giving me the strength to get through the past week.
Thank you for Spring and for new life and new beginnings. You're awesome. We love you!!
We have been so fortunate all winter to be living healthy lives with no sickness. Of course, spring will change all that when the dreaded allergies strike my house. But allergies, I can deal with.
11 years ago today, my husband asked me to be his wife. Never once have I ever doubted my love for him. He's a pretty amazing person. He gives with his whole self. He's so tough on the outside, but definitely soft and lovey on the inside. He's a great dad and a great husband. I couldn't ask for more. I am truly blessed and lucky that God gave me him.
Thank you Lord today, for everything that you give to us but especially the love you give from yourself and others. We are definitely not worthy of your affection, yet you give it always, unconditionally.
Your love stands in the shadow of no other and can overcome anything. Thank you for humbling my heart and thank you for giving me the strength to get through the past week.
Thank you for Spring and for new life and new beginnings. You're awesome. We love you!!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Attitude Adjustment
Lately, I feel like I am absolutely no fun to be around because I have this stinky attitude about everything. I feel like I'm sour about work, about home, and everything in between. I need a serious attitude adjustment and there's no one that can do it except God, with my cooperation of course.
Things that were said and happened earlier in the week have me in a really nasty place. I am resentful and bitter about a lot of different things right now. I want to let go and enjoy my life just the way it is, no matter what anyone else thinks.
1 Peter 3:8 says: "Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind."
And I realized, Hmm. It's that easy. Have a tender heart. Here I am walking around all bitter because other people don't do what they should and don't treat me the way I deserve and I have to STOP and un-harden my heart. There's definitely not room in my heart for Christ and all of my bitter feelings as well.
So I'm praying today Lord that you take any hurt feelings I have. Heel them and help me forgive. Take any of the bitterness and judgemental feelings and wash them away. Give me a clean slate and make me a blank page for you. No matter how tough I seem, I am only your child and can not do it alone.
Things that were said and happened earlier in the week have me in a really nasty place. I am resentful and bitter about a lot of different things right now. I want to let go and enjoy my life just the way it is, no matter what anyone else thinks.
1 Peter 3:8 says: "Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind."
And I realized, Hmm. It's that easy. Have a tender heart. Here I am walking around all bitter because other people don't do what they should and don't treat me the way I deserve and I have to STOP and un-harden my heart. There's definitely not room in my heart for Christ and all of my bitter feelings as well.
So I'm praying today Lord that you take any hurt feelings I have. Heel them and help me forgive. Take any of the bitterness and judgemental feelings and wash them away. Give me a clean slate and make me a blank page for you. No matter how tough I seem, I am only your child and can not do it alone.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Agape Love
Yesterday was quite possibly the worst day I have had in a long time. Someone I thought cared about me said some really hurtful things. I know I may not be the prettiest person in our family and I'm sure not the skinniest. But I deserve to be loved and respected whether I'm a size 6 or 16. I can already see the disgust in your face when you look at me but the things that were said yesterday just re-affirmed what you think.
To go one step further and say that we live like pigs and are unclean people. We may not be perfect, but you know what, that's okay. We have people that love us for who we are and don't judge us for what we have and how we keep it. I have never been so hurt and insulted in my life.
But then I thought, wait, I don't really need your acceptance. I have a heavenly father who loves me with unconditional love, agape love. And as long as I live my life to his glory and to serve him, nothing that anyone thinks matters. He is the one and only one who will ever judge me and it matter.
So I only scrub my toilet once a week. And I may only vaccum once a week too. I'm not perfect, nor did I ever claim to be.
So today Lord, I pray that you give me the wisdom to forgive and move on from these things and you give me the strength to not judge others. Because being judged makes you feel the lowest of low. I pray that you will keep your blessings on my family and my house as you always do and I pray that you will continue to provide for us as you see fit.
To go one step further and say that we live like pigs and are unclean people. We may not be perfect, but you know what, that's okay. We have people that love us for who we are and don't judge us for what we have and how we keep it. I have never been so hurt and insulted in my life.
But then I thought, wait, I don't really need your acceptance. I have a heavenly father who loves me with unconditional love, agape love. And as long as I live my life to his glory and to serve him, nothing that anyone thinks matters. He is the one and only one who will ever judge me and it matter.
So I only scrub my toilet once a week. And I may only vaccum once a week too. I'm not perfect, nor did I ever claim to be.
So today Lord, I pray that you give me the wisdom to forgive and move on from these things and you give me the strength to not judge others. Because being judged makes you feel the lowest of low. I pray that you will keep your blessings on my family and my house as you always do and I pray that you will continue to provide for us as you see fit.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thankful!!!
Yesterday was a great day!!! Unemployment FINALLY sent us some money so we are on the up swing folks. Looking forward to seeing my family this weekend and also meeting baby Alexander for the first time. We have some big milestones coming in the next few months.
James and I will be becoming an aunt and uncle for the first time. Katie will be graduating from college in May. Great things are happening for us right now. And I couldn't love my husband more. I say that each day, but each day, I do. I am so thankful that God gave me the eyes to see what was right in front of me.
I know that he is having a rough time not working and feeling like that's what he's supposed to be doing, but as long as he loves me and Justin and no one else comes before us, then that's all I need. I'd work 100 hours a week if I had to.
In the end, when we retire and our kids put us in nursing homes, the other people that live there with us won't care if we drove a lexus or a ford in our 20's and 30's. And they definitely won't care how many bedrooms our house had and how big our boat was. And lastly, they won't be asking how much money you made and how high up in power you were.
All that will matter is that you were loved and you served God with your whole self. Take a few minutes and realize that you only have what you have because of God. He is the only one that can give and he is the only one that can take it away. Don't be distracted by the flashy things of the world. They won't do you any good when it really counts.
Have a great weekend everyone and safe travels.
James and I will be becoming an aunt and uncle for the first time. Katie will be graduating from college in May. Great things are happening for us right now. And I couldn't love my husband more. I say that each day, but each day, I do. I am so thankful that God gave me the eyes to see what was right in front of me.
I know that he is having a rough time not working and feeling like that's what he's supposed to be doing, but as long as he loves me and Justin and no one else comes before us, then that's all I need. I'd work 100 hours a week if I had to.
In the end, when we retire and our kids put us in nursing homes, the other people that live there with us won't care if we drove a lexus or a ford in our 20's and 30's. And they definitely won't care how many bedrooms our house had and how big our boat was. And lastly, they won't be asking how much money you made and how high up in power you were.
All that will matter is that you were loved and you served God with your whole self. Take a few minutes and realize that you only have what you have because of God. He is the only one that can give and he is the only one that can take it away. Don't be distracted by the flashy things of the world. They won't do you any good when it really counts.
Have a great weekend everyone and safe travels.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Hope is diminishing
Happy Thursday all,
Well the week started off with a shock. James did get to work on Monday and Tuesday of this week. Much to our dismay, it was short lived. We did receive word from the unemployment office that his claim had not been denied. So I guess that's better than what it could have said.
Oddly enough, Bible study last night was about finding your worth and purpose as according to God. I know that most of us struggle with our worth on a daily basis but especially in today's time when the unemployment rate is at an all time high and people are losing things that they've worked hard for left and right.
Colossian 3:2 says: Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
This scripture helps me assign my worth. You must first remove all monetary value from your mind. To God, you are NEVER a dollar sign, or a new car, or a new house.
Your hands are his hands and your feet are his feet. He made you from nothing!! This is all I need to realize my worth. I am worth the world to him. He saw so much potential and worth in each of us to give his son and forgive everything we do to him every day.
That makes me feel like something WAY greater than a million bucks. I hope it does you as well.
Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand. Proverbs 19: 21
Always remember, if you're looking for your purpose here on earth and it's becoming difficult, he's always right there. All it takes it to be humble and say to him, I give it ALL to you Lord. Every bit of me. Show me my purpose.
Well the week started off with a shock. James did get to work on Monday and Tuesday of this week. Much to our dismay, it was short lived. We did receive word from the unemployment office that his claim had not been denied. So I guess that's better than what it could have said.
Oddly enough, Bible study last night was about finding your worth and purpose as according to God. I know that most of us struggle with our worth on a daily basis but especially in today's time when the unemployment rate is at an all time high and people are losing things that they've worked hard for left and right.
Colossian 3:2 says: Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
This scripture helps me assign my worth. You must first remove all monetary value from your mind. To God, you are NEVER a dollar sign, or a new car, or a new house.
Your hands are his hands and your feet are his feet. He made you from nothing!! This is all I need to realize my worth. I am worth the world to him. He saw so much potential and worth in each of us to give his son and forgive everything we do to him every day.
That makes me feel like something WAY greater than a million bucks. I hope it does you as well.
Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand. Proverbs 19: 21
Always remember, if you're looking for your purpose here on earth and it's becoming difficult, he's always right there. All it takes it to be humble and say to him, I give it ALL to you Lord. Every bit of me. Show me my purpose.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
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